it’s been a long five years.. but for some reason, it seems like its coming so fast. our last week of highschool is already here. it might not have hit me yet, but the reality is that pretty soon, highschool is just going to be referred to as something in the past. throughout the past five years, it’s safe to say that we all have grown up a lot, learned a lot, and dealt with a lot. It’s bittersweet. exciting to move on in life, but heartbreaking to say goodbye.. as horrible as it may have been. People say, you’ll have your best years of your life in highschool, live it to the fullest. but so many of us have been impatient to grow up that we didnt realize that it’s all going to be over soon. It never occurred to me that i’m never going to be in highschool ever again. we’re never going to be as close as we are now. I mean, we stay in touch with the ones we want to but we’re never going to have everyone together like this again because life happens and people move on. I’ve had countless good times in the past five years with my friends, and sometimes i wish i can go back. I already do miss elementary school, i can’t imagine how much i’m going to miss highschool. I remember saying I can’t wait to get out, i can’t wait to leave this place and leave all the fake people behind. But i never considered everything else i’d be leaving behind as well. I’d be leaving my security behind, my safety net. because highschool was safe for me. it wasn’t hard, it was easy to understand and to figure out. now i’m left at a new chapter, i have to face the real world, start making smart decisions, no more fucking around; it’s the real thing. People are slowly going into their destined positions, and if your not careful, people can start moving forward without you. In highschool, you always have someone pushing you to move on, to keep working hard. now, you need to motivate yourself to keep heading forward. the real world is scary.. one bad decision can change your entire life.
the phrase “you never know what you have until it’s gone” is so true. honestly, i have took highschool for granted. if i could go back and relive it, i believe i would because if you think about it, the five years in highschool would probably be one of the best moments in life. highschool taught me a lot, about who to trust, who my real friends are, and who i am myself. as corny as it may sound, i found my own identity throughout these years. it took some time but i found my own person and i think that’s a part of what highschool is suppose to be. it taught me to follow my heart, stand up for who and what i believe in, and never ever let anyone tell you that you can’t. it’s sooo hard for me to wrap my head around the thought that it has already been five years. all i have to say is: it will be missed. ♥ grad 2010.
